So you know that I’ve been following the Shaklee program since the beginning of March. And I’ve been “good” for 95% of the time, eating my two Shaklee meals a day, a snack, and a healthy dinner. I’ve pretty much stayed within my calorie allowances, and I’ve shared with you the workouts that I’m doing regularly. Now that the weather is warmer, I’m adding in nightly walks around my neighborhood with the wee ones where they bike and I walk, which adds another 2-3 miles to my daily activity.
Well, mostly. I’ve lost 11 pounds since I started, but I’ve been mostly stuck for awhile. And I feel like my measurements aren’t changing that much either, an inch here and an inch there. I’ve gotten frustrated at myself and somewhat depressed that things aren’t moving as fast as I’d like.
I’ve gotten trapped into the perspective that either I’m bikini body ready or I’m not where I want to be. There’s no in between for me, and that’s not right. I’ve made progress, but my perception just isn’t there to match. I still see what I expect to see and focus on all the negative instead of on what I’ve accomplished.
So when my mom says it looks like I’ve lost weight, I shrug her off. When my friends exclaim that I’m tiny, I look at them and shake my head. No, I reply. I have barely lost anything. Even my measurements aren’t really changing. And they think I’m nuts. I’ve gotten compliments from friends but can’t take them.
And that is flat out wrong.
There’s a middle ground, and I’m smack dab in the center of it. I’ve made progress. I’m much more fit than I was two months ago, and I’ve lost eleven pounds. Little Miss was seven months old before she weighed eleven pounds. And I haven’t ever gained eleven pounds in a year. So that’s pretty awesome, right? Right.
So no, I’m not at my goal weight yet, but I’m eight pounds away. And that’s totally doable. I may not be tiny in my mind, but my friends can see and tell. And if I focus on it, I can, too. And that’s what I need to do – focus on what I’ve done not on the tummy that isn’t flat or the arms that have a wiggle or my inner thighs that jiggle.
It’s a process, and I’m going through it. I’ve got the tools via Shaklee and my workouts to get me to where I want to go. The next time someone says something nice about me, I promise to simply smile and say thank you. Because their perception? It’s probably a little less skewed than my own.